October~I'm Sorry

I can't run anymore
I fall before you
Here I am
I have nothing left
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am
Take me home
I'm through fighting it

Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up
You're my only strength.
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried to run)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love

I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
In all my bitterness,
I ignored
All that's real and true
All I need is you
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong
I can't lie anymore
I fall down before you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried to run)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love

Constantly ignoring
The pain consuming me
But this time it's cut too deep
I'll never stray again

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried to run)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried to run)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love

Enjoy

I FEEL RELIEVED

Jngn risau sebab semua ayat2 power yg aku gunakan dlm blog ni diambil dripada lirik2 lagu.tiada kena-mengena dngn yg hidup atau yg mati.cam best je ayat2 tersebut.so palagiat lar..kalau ad pun kebetulan jer.hahaha.hari ni aku hepy sbb datok K@Kery@KJ nak blanje aku makan KFC malam ni (4-8-2009).Betul x Kery??hahaha, tu pun kalau dye baca.hahaha.lagi satu aku hepy sebab dapat dngar 2 lagu Muse dri album terbaru dia iaitu The Resistance (album)..lagu2 nye adalah Uprising dan United States of Eurasia.BEST GILER LA.ENJOYYYYY

Nak seribu daya,xnak seribu dalih

Pepatah melayu ad cakap...Nak Seribu Daya, Bila Dh X Nak Macam2 Alasan Yg Diberikan..betul ke pepatah tersebut..???Lain orang lain cara nyer...ad orang bile dh nak mula2 je semangat,ble de sket problem terus x jadi..terus cari benda lain yg lgi senang..x adventure la cam2..bgi pihak yg satu lagi, ble dh x nak senyap je..xde response..x taw pendirian dia..ad lak,ble yg dh nak mmg nak batol2 la..pendek kata selagi x dapat ap yg dinakkan tu, selagi tu la dia xkan berenti...mmg strong la motivation dia..bg pihak yg satu lgi,ble dh xnak x taw ckp cmne, tunjukkan ngn sikap dia...

(^^)......itulah kehidupan...

sebenar ny aku nak citer pasal meja studi aku..akibat meja aku kecik,cukup2 nak letak pc,maka terpaksa la aku mencari alternatif len utk dijadikan meja..dan calon ny adalah...

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multi-purpose container tempat ak letak makanan bnyk2..hahaha..ni la antara maknn2 yg ak letak..kordial sirap de,biskut,teh,ovaltine,susu everyday,gula dan gula2 hacks...de lagi, malas nak tunjuk...kang riak lak..

orang kata nak seribu daya, so aku jadikan kn la container letak makanan ni jdi meja studi aku..ok x...xnak seribu dalih...hehehe


kalau dh xnak,xyah la...x kisah...sudah...hahaha~

BlueS utk aku..

Hari Sabtu, 1 August 2009,jam 7.29 malam

Azan Magrib berkumandang menandakan masuk nye waktu solat Magrib.sayup2 sj azan itu namun sudah cukup utk memberitahu manusia sudah tiba masa nye utk menunaikan kewajipan yg telah ditetapkan.serta-merta lagu yg dimainkan di PC ditutup demi menghormati waktu tersebut.terasa ketenangan di waktu Magrib ni.suasana damai akibat mendung dan hujan yg turun pada hari ini sedikit sebanyak mempengaruhi hati dan fikiran ku.terasa kesunyian di waktu ini.kebanyakan member2 ku pulang ke kg masing2 kerna bercuti.cuti H1N1..

SUNYI....SEPI....ke manakah suara2 riang tlh pergi......???

hanya terdengar petikan2 gitar dri memberku yg berada di tingkat bwah..pandai tol dye men gitar.men lak lagu yg berentak slow..dari Cromok-Another You..makin layan lah fikiran aku mengingati bnyk perkara.melayang2 di buatnya.aku x tau nak cakap ape utk hari ini dan hari2 sebelum nyer.bnyak tol gangguan jiwa yg menyinggah kat aku..tensen ak di wat nyer..pada sape lah aku nak mengadu...xde sape, sumer nye aku pendam kan saje.aku adalah aku..seperti dulu.tidak pernah berubah walau sedikit pun..terdiam seketika memikir kan ayat2 utk ditulis...

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hari ini x bnyak benda yg aku buat.bnyak tido jer.x tau dh nak watpe..nak studi, xde mood lak..bnyk menghabis kan masa depan PC jer..mencari hiburan pengubat hati..Music My Soul..

MUSIC....itu lah jiwaku..daripada muzik, aku mendapat ilham..dripada muzik, aku fokus...dan darpda muzik,aku menghayati...menghayati kebnaran dan maksud yg tersirat dlm setiap lirik lagu dan mengait kan nye ngn kehidupan seharian..layan blues laar...hahaaha..

Hari Ahad,2 August 2009,jam 2.02 pagi

Aku terjaga dari tidor.Lepas makan malam kat KS tdi mata mengantok sangat.bese la pas makan.sampai je umah terus landing sambil mendengar lagu2 slow.lbih kurang kul 10 lebih la{malam}.bngun je semayang Isyak.terus on PC dan dengar lagu.Di antara Kalian Dri D'Massive.layan giler la lagu ni.buat tea dan minum sbb aku rasa badan ak panas..cool kan sket badan tu..

camni la lirik lagu Diantara Kalian tu..NAMUN aku dh ubahsuai sket kerna terdapat kekeliruan maksud dan perkataan antara Melayu Indon dan Malaysia..

Kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sedar ku kalangan orang2 biasa
aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

kuakui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
tapi kini ku sedar ku tak akan dapat capai hajatku
aku tak mengerti
ini semua harus terjadi

lupakan aku kembali padanya
aku bukan siapa- siapa untukmu
kucintaimu tak bererti bahwa
ku harus memilikimu slamanya
aaaa aaa...

kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sedar ku kalangan orang biasa
aku tak mengerti
ini semua harus terjadi



seperti biasa~layan blues~haha tiba2 hujan lebat kat luar.mencurah2..syukur Alhamdulillah..sejuk sket rasa nyer... harap2 esok pun camni la... aku masih teringat ttng dia...

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to let U know how much U mean...

Tiba2 malam ni fikiran aku teralih kepada mengingati saat2 kat DGCT dulu..aku rasa keadaan masa LI kat DG dulu lebih gembira dan bermakna drpd saat yg aku hadapi sekarang.termenung dan terdiam aku memikirkan masa2 kat DGCT dulu.mmg rindukan saat2 camtu sekarang..aku rndu kan member2 dulu..hepi dan ceria dngn gelagat diorang..boleh layan la..tpi...

xde mood aku nak wat kije sekarang..aku sendiri je yg tau sebab nyer.walaupun hati ad semangat tpi x mampu utk maintain kannye..ble x dpat wat jer, sekijap je aku putus asa...ad sesuatu yg hilang dlm diri ku iaitu soul atau jiwa..ke manakah ia telah pergi?????berikan lah padaku semangat...pleaze...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end of every...

resah...

sampai bler ????

silennt doesn't mean I'm give up..
for **** ,senyum slalu...

^.^ bye (Demolition Lover)

Seasons change

Do You Know What's Worth Fighting For
When It's Not Worth Dying For?
Does It Take Your Breath Away
And You Feel Yourself Suffocating?
Does The Pain Weigh Out The Pride?
And You Look For A Place To Hide?
Did Someone Break Your Heart Inside?
You're In Ruins

And If You Go
I Wanna Go With You
And If You Die
I Wanna Die With You

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

When the clouds will rage up
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash around
But you will be safe in my arms

The most loneliest day in my life.When???

Hepi together forever ^_^

Gembira sentiasa hendak nye walau apa pun situasi korang yer..don't be sad..life is not like that..kerana dari kegembiraan akan membuat kan hati bercahaya...daripada itu akan mewujudkan pemikiran yg waras...daripada pemikiran yg waras akan memberi petunjuk kpd tindakan yg betul...setiap manusia mempunyai hati dan keinginan...dan kadang2 keinginan itu terlalu kuat sehingga ia menguasai pemikiran dan menyebabkan tindakan luar kawal yg akan mewujudkan satu penyesalan...rileks, cool dan bertenang, krna perjalanan kehidupan kita maseh panjang jika dizinkan Tuhan..mungkin apa yg kita nak tu akan terjadi pada hari esok,lusa dan hari2 seterus nya...apa yg penting don't give up, and banyak kan la berdoa...try to control our heart even aku sendiri pun tngh cuba mengontrol nya...step by step...hahaha, boleh ker???

once in a lifetime for us to get something very important in our life especially when it involves our heart and feeling for someone...assume that there is no tomorrow for us, but don't push ourselves too hard because sometimes it can hurt us more and more...try to be rasional and confident that when the times come, they will be ours...relax,cool,fresh...at least we have try and let them know that once ago there is a person who cares and luv for them...don't be regrett to leave the moment like this even the reality is hurt...haha, speaking la lak....

One Tree Hill Qutes "Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back"

are we lucky...Insya Allah...

aku adalah aku.....hari2 aku adalh lonely day....hahaha...Lonely day-System Of A down...

Such A Lonely Day
And It's Mine
The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life

Such A Lonely Day
Should Be Banned
It's A Day That I Can't Stand

The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life
The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life

Such A Lonely Day
Shouldn't Exist
It's A Day That I'll Never Miss

Such A Lonely Day
And It's Mine
The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life

And If You Go
I Wanna Go With You
And If You Die
I Wanna Die With You

Take Your Hand And Walk Away

The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life
The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life
The Most Loneliest Day Of My Life


Such A Lonely Day
And It's Mine
It's A Day That I'm Glad I Survived

walau apapun, I just want to let u know u r special in my life......senyum,senyum dan senyum lah selalu........bye!

should i???

i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....
i need to let it go....

i'll waiting u...
i'll waiting u...
i'll waiting u...
i'll waiting u...
i'll waiting u...

in my heart forever....
in my heart forever....
in my heart forever....
in my heart forever....
in my heart forever....


Wait it out 'til the light
Take a breath, say good night
But don’t ever go away
Wait around to find the time
Only you can take what’s mine
But don’t ever go away

I’ll be waiting
I need to let it go

Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go
No more reasons to deny
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go

A chance to change or stay the same
One night without the blame
That'll never go away
Only you can make it right
To walk away and have no fight
But don’t ever go away

I’ll be waiting
I need to let it go

Sepetang di Bukit Beruang

kadang2, ble petang kalau aku rajin aku suka kuar jalan2 smbil menyihat kan badan..
kadang2 ak gi Taman Tasek ayer Keroh..tpi agak jarang la...n kadang2 aku gi panjat Bukit Beruang..
kan nye senang tau nk panjat bukit tu...curam tu ...ad satu part memang curam giler la...memerlukan kekuatan kaki dan jg mental....haha...

n memang berpeluh2 la ble sampai ke puncak 2..x lama pun perjalanan ke puncak...tpi agak memnatkan gak la....n kat bukit beruang tu, ad satu tempat utk lepak2 melihat pemandangan di bawah....leh nampak laut, sebahagian melaka dan kawasan2 yg sewaktu dngn nyer...

syukur dn tenang melihat keindahan alam....nk release tension pun ok gak...tenang je pemandangan nye....tanda2 kekuasaan Tuhan..


indahnyer..

jj ngn melaka mall

coolz..

bukit beruang kul 12 malam..xde kije..

43 minutes online

hahaha..lucu,kelakar, itulah yg leh disimpulkan setelah 43 minit...43 minutes in the night...very2 funny...but this is the truth...every person have their own approach,it dooesn't mean anything, just want to try to get closed to the reality...yeah!!!chaiyok,chaiyok...cool and relax your mind...

seminggu aku di semester baru..masih menyesuaikan diri dngan suasana pembeljaran setelah hampir 6 bulan x masuk kelas, tak dengar lecturer (tu x termasuk lecturer pak long la), x menulis nota2, x menekan kalkulator, x wat asignment dan x mengira formula..minggu pertama ni de excuse sket la..cam minggu suaikenal gak la ngn subject2 tuk thun 4 ni...

pe yg leh disimpulkan tuk subject2 yg di amek sem ni de yg aku minat, de yg x minat dan de yg terpaksa buat2 minat...subjek yg ak minat mesti lah de kaitan dngn math operation such as integral and differential...contoh cam subjek numerical method dan digital signal processing (DSP)..DSP ni mmg mencabar gak la pd aku sbb ia melibatkan operation Laplace Transform dan juga Fourier Series...tpi otak ak mmg dri dulu dh bersedia tuk subjek2 camni....InsyaAllah ak akn cuba skor tuk 2 subjek ni....

de gak subjek yg melibatkan prgramming dan theory yg bnyak giler...pasal computer architecture dan embedded sistem...agak bebal gak la otak aku nak dimasukkan dngn theory2 yg ntahape2 ntah...x leh terima la..tpi xpe, I will try my best for this final year..tuk final year project pun dh jumper..ok la tajuk dye, leh wat la..ad kene mengena la ngn kos yg aku amek skang ni..
ak wat project "Intruder Alert via SMS for premises using PIC microcontroller" ...nanti aku akan ceritakan secara detail yer...sbb tu ak kena fokus and wat yg terbaek..bukan tuk sesapa tpi for myself n my future...one step before the future, right???

ada satu hari dlm minggu ni mmg ak xleh tido...masa ak tengok wyg ngn budak2 ni aritu...x tau pesal ak sush nak tido...badan rasa panas je..dlm kul 5 lebih baru la leh tido sket...sebelum tido tu bnyk benda gak la yg ak pk,sambil dngr2 lagu kat hp ak..nanti la ble de masa ak akn citer ap yg ak pikirkan...tido dlm sejam 2 jer..pastu kul 7 pgi bngun balek..nseb bek leh bngun tuk subuh,,,sempat lagi..kelas lak kul 9..pe lgi dalm kelas mata stim jer...hahaha...

lapau la malam ni...kurus dh ak ni...persan je..haha...berpeluh2 masa ku tulis ni...x hilang2 lagi....
ntah la,,,

msak air jap, nak wat air milo la..xpun air susu nk hilangkan lapo ni...alas perut jer..

luahan perasaan::::::

entah + entah + entah + entah =4 entah

4 entah adalah neutral (suatu yg x pasti) leh jdi positif atau negatif

kadar tindakbalas entah leh dipercepatkan dgn menggunakan pemangkin ..haha, kimia sket...

pastikan sukatan yg betol plus bergantung juga pada suhu pembolehubah yg bergerak balas....

last skali, yg ttp menentukan hasil nye ttp adalah Tuhan yg Maha Berkuasa..
manusia hnye mampu berusaha dan merancang....

in my heart......
diam2 ubi...
ok.....
snyum slalu (^_^)

Windu nye kat dye...

En Kimi: fOKus membelah kek ari jadi aku
atas pilihan dye :haha

En Kimi: Kat tman tasek ayer keroh

Cik Zetty : Senyuman manis memikat hati :haha

Cik zETTY :takot2 nak jalan

cik sakura :) :::sapo lak ni???

it is not easily to forget u

Let your inhibitions go
Make every touch electrical
When you're feeling beautiful
Will you remember me?

I want to touch you deep inside
And find the secrets that you hide
When your fears are cast aside
Will you remember me?

Easily forgotten love
Easily forgotten love
It's not so easily

I just want to let you know
My mind refuses to let you go
I wanna hypnotize you
So you will remember me

Easily forgotten love
Easily forgotten love
It's not so easily

Easily forgotten love
Easily forgotten love
Easily the best I ever had
Easily the best I ever had

*lagu ni dari Muse, tjuk easily..ak suka lagu ni sbb lirik dia besh ngn music..terutamanya drum ngn bass...mendayu2, bg aku laa...leh membuatkan ak goyang kepala n menghayati ny (feeling)...haha

malam semalam

Malam semlam,,satu malam aku xleh tido...

x tau nape...payah giler nak tido....

kul 5 kat kul 6 bru la leh lena skjap....tu pn sekejap jer...

kul 7 bngun balek semayg subuh..nseb bek leh bangun.....

kenapa?kenapa?kenapa?

and arini memang aku ngantok giler...

ptng ni..

nak tido tpi dlm masa yg same nak dngar muzik...

hati rasa cam x puas jer....

nape?menagapa?kenapa??

argh!!!!!!

why?y?y?

jadilah manusia dlm senyuman

x kira pape pun keadaan

s m i l e

s e n y u m

h e p i

e n j o y

g e m b i r a

g o o d l u c k

give me reason to prove me wrong

tepat 1.30 pgi, hari Khamis aku menulis.baru je balik dri menonton wayang.tengok citer transformer kali ke-2 bersama member2 kat dgct dulu..kali ni x ramai cam kali pertama tengok transformer dulu...yg ad, aku, KJ, Latip, Wan, Shak dan member2 Latip..saje temankan si Latip...dulu masa kali pertma tengok dye x pat sebab dye demam sampai muntah2...hari ni dh ok kot....

jangan risau kalau de jodoh kte akn berjumpa juga...ini ditujukan utk bebudak dgct yg praktikal dgn aku dulu especially tuk bebudak poli Merlimau sbb diorang ramai..semua kenangan aku simpan kukuh kat dlm hati ni...ak ni bukan jenis orang yg sng melupakan sesuatu...cuma luaran je nampak lain, tpi dalam hati xde sape yg tahu kecuali Allah dan orang2 yg dipilih nya...bukan senang aku nak meluahkan segala rahsia aku pd orang len tau...biar lah aku simpan nye dalam hati....

berbalik kpd citer transformer tdi,,sebenar ny ak tertarik pada soundtrack dia...salah satu sebab aku tengok citer ni lgi...soundtrack ny contoh cam dri Greenday-21 gUns dan Cavo-Let It go, mmg best giler la lagu nye...ak tau la sebab aku ni kaki dengar muzik...pada ku, lagu dye memang best giler la...lagi satu sebb aku tengok delah masa first tyme dulu aku x sempat tngok starting awal2 ny sbb masuk 15 minit lewat kat dlm panggung...ni sumer gara2 si atok sbb dye leh lak tertido akt umah..pastu dtng lambat..hahaha..atok2..tpi xpe sbb atok aku x marah...

bukan sng nak melupakan sesuatu,susah tau...laupun citer transformer ni best,dan menarik,,,,namun otak aku sukar nak fokus sbb asek teringat sesuatu...payah2....kadang2 takot gak..laupun sekarang ni ok...ok ker???? hahaha...apa yg ok nye tu....persoalan2, cuma yg terpilih sje dapat membaca nye.....ahah..

lau pe pun,,,,gud luck utk sumer bebudak dgct...lau pe pun korang wat,,ingat la,,wat la yg terbaik...bukan tuk sesape, tpi tuk diri sendiri...setiap orang de impian dan keinginan masing2....leh jdi utk jangka panjang atau pendek....jngn mudah putus asa..usaha dan bnyak kan la berdoa tuk mndapatkan segla yg korang nak tau...studi kuat2....mungkin de yg dh masuk sem baru...n mungkin de yg cuti lagi....keep your sweet memory...

aku pun tinggal stahun lagi studi...dh cnior dh aku,thun 4 dh....makin besar tangungjawab...aku akn cuba wat yg terbaek dan skor utk last 2 sem nanti...oleh itu aku amat memrlukan kekuatn dan inspirasi sbgai pemangkin...new divide from linkin park ost transformer....

ak amat rindu korang sumer...especially........????

Satu perkataan yg bernilai...

t E R I M a

K a S i H

x perlu menggunakan harta utk appreciate tindakan seseorng...
dngn perkaataan jer dh cukup......
hidup lebih bermakna.....
gud luck to ......

Life mustt go ON...fighting For Worth

Do you know what's worth fighting for When it's not worth dying for? Does it take you breath away And you feel yourself suffocating(melemaskan)? Does the pain weight out the pride? And you look for a place to hide? DiD someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins

When you're at the end of the road And you lost all sense of control And your thoughts have taken their toll When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul Your faith walks on broken glass And the hangover doesn't pass Nothing's ever built to last You're in ruins

Did you try to live on your own When you burned down the house and home? Did you stand too close to the fire? Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins


nothing can't stop me to pursue my dreams except myself...

Bicara Mlam ini...

Kul 12.27 am..hari ahad..aku baru je pas balik minum kat kedai makan Kenang Selalu aka KS aka Kawan Saya kat Bukit Beruang sne..actually x makan ,cuma minum jer...semata2 temankn member yg minum keseorangan..sian lak tengok dye...dkat jer..umah swa aku kat belakang Melaka Mall sne...sje jalan2 waktu malam...

Masa perjalanan lalu la kat depan Melaka Mall dan aku dpat tengok suasan yg happening di malam minggu ni..rmai giler orang berlepakan...penuh ngn kete...ak xde la nak lepak2 camtu...buang mase jer...tpi skali skala ngn member x pe la....mungkin ak patut berubah..menjdi seorang yg lbih aktif dan bersosial cam diorang tu...tpi ble aku dh jdi cam2 nanti payah sket la...ak cuma leh fokus pd satu perkara, satu sikap n satu fikiran...ak x suka berpura2 nk mengaburi mata orang...biar lah aku mnejadi aku...aku dngn sikap dan pemikiran ku sindri...yg de cita2 dan impian tuk dikejar....biar lah rang nak kata kau cmner...yg penting setiap manusia ad cara dan sikap sendiri dlm menghadpi kehidupan ye x???....aku adalh aku.....

sambil menulis aku dengr lagu dri Greenday ..tajuk dia 21 Guns..lagu soundtrack dri cerita Transformer 2...lagu ni agak best jugak...layan la...

aku bru je sampai umah sewa ptng tdi...actually smpai hari Selasa ari tu...tpi de barang2 yg x cukup lagi tinggal kat kg kat segamat sne...so balik la...dpat gak la aku merasa dan menjahanam kan keter abng ngah aku yg bru beli ari Kamis aritu...keter Honda Civic baru....canggih gak la keter dye....dye pun memang lmer dh berangan nk beli keter....tercapai gak la impian dyer...
sekarang de satu keter yg free kat umah ak kat kg...So, secara otomatik nye keter tersebut menjdi keter aku la....keter Prton Iswara..ok lgi...tpi aku lum sedia lgi nak bawak keter tu...ak sekarang dlam jiwa perempit.....syok gak rasa ny mencilok kanan dan kiri....bnyak lagi yg perlu ak blajar pasal moto ni...biarlah ak expert satu2.....

tpi malam ni ak rasa agak x sedap gak la..ak x tau pe yg patut aku wat...ak takut dngn diri aku sekarang ni...aku takut aku x dpat mengejar pe yg ku ingin kan....perkara itu la yg slalu bermain kat minda aku pada setiap masa setipa hari setiap saat....sukar untuk menterjemah ka sesuatu yg x pasti....ak x tau cmne nak wat lgi...sbb ak memang xde penglaman dlam hal2 camni....serius shit plus bullshit....aku cuma wat ape yg otak aku ingin kan....kadang2 aku leh kontrol but kdng2 jiwa aku kacau....ble dh smpai camtu..perasaan melebihi akal fikiran dan kesabaran....ap lagi yg leh aku wat selain mengikut sje segala yg hati ini ingin kan....sehinggalah ak berasa puas....

kepada sesape..tolong lah beri tips2 utk aku berhadapn ngn situasi ini....kdng2 ka rasa rendh diri dan bersalah...ble dh smpai thap camtu, memang segala ape yg ku buat tidak akan menjadi....dan aku rasa jiwa ak kosong dan sunyi lau pun de benda yg biasa aku wat yg leh gumbirakan hati ini...help me....jarang aku mintak tolong...itu lah keegoan aku...aku cuba blajar dan mnegikut pa tindakan yg aku wat yg ak pikir kan betol....but sometimes, there is something tht we don't have an experince and must learn to progress one step above....bicara malam ini.....

dlam bilik di tingkat dua umah aku, ak dok sorang2 melayan perasaan sambil mendengar lagu2...kadang2 dngn mendengar lagu sambil menulis bnyak mendatang kan idea....dan ianya kena ngn situasi yg kita hadapi sekrang.....kembalikan semangat tuk menghadapi hari2 yg mendatang......

bagaimana seseorang menilai seseorang yg len...len orang len cara penilain dia...ntah la...janji ak bahagia...tpi cmne nak bahagia...bukan..,,janji mereka2 bahagia.....ak xpe,ak x kisah...tpi yg penting biarlah orang sekelilng ak bahagia....priority aku memang camtu dri dulu....mmg jrng sangat aku susah kn diorang...itu pe yg aku alam sindri la...sehingga sanggup aku korbn kan diri aku tuk mereka...contoh cam result exam ku yg lepas2....ak ni len sket orang nyer....ble ku dh xnak sesuatu,mmg aku akn lupakan benda tersebut....x kisah la penting ke tidak....tpi ble ak dh nak,,,xde sape yg leh halang aku....tu la.....

k la......i need to let it go...haha,ayt2 ni dtng dri tajuk algu dri kumpulan Cavo-Let It Go..tiba 2 jer ak dngar lagu ni masa nak ending posting...cam de jodoh lak...sentimental tol....ni pn soundtrack transformer......ok....gud luck to all yer......mmmmuaahhh......

Muse Poem (Compilation song from various album)

Time Is Running Out In Your World,
Take A Bow or do we need Assasin?
Do We Need This for both of us for Feeling Good?
I feel Ashamed because I Can't Take My Eyes Of You,
I'm Falling Away With You,
Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want from you,
I'm a New Born from the past and try to Escape from you,
But, the Map Of Your Head make me feel Eternally Missed with you,
The Gallery of you inside my head make me Hysteria,
It feels like Butterfly And Hurricanes in the Shrinking Universe,
It was a Crying Shame when no Starlight to heal the Darkshines from our heart,
Only the Deadstar, Supermassive Black Holes Blackout us,
No more Shine comes from both of us,
I want me in Coma so that I'll forget you,it is not so Easily,
Our love is Endlessly,
Then comes the Man of Mystery,
Who erased all Execution Commentary in our heart,
And dedicated Sing For Absolution and Soldier's Poem for us,
Make us Invincible and Glorious again,
There is no more Map Of The Problematique between us,
I Hate This and I'll Love You,
Who's The Man Of Mystery who saved us?
It is me and you and our Endlessly love....

Enjoy listen to MUSE song because many means lyric and fresh music from guitar, bass and drumms...muse is the best..

....

e m p t y -the click 5

l o s t -kate perry,coldplay

Nota Utk Diri Sendiri (Note To self)

Two roads
Split off from here
yet my life goes running
in opposite directions
Exaggerating(membesar2kan)
the barrier between
who I am
and who I want to be

......................................................................................................................................

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air
When everything smelled so insincere
But this taste still lingers in my mouth
Deceit(dusta) has ways of sticking around
And I'm ready to disappear
Vacation seems far
From here

.....................................................................................................................................................................................................

Note to self:
I miss you terribly
This is what
We call a tragedy
Come back to me
come back to me
To me.

Note to self:
I miss you terribly
This is what
We call a tragedy
Come back to me
back to me
To me

...........................................................................................................................................................................

I can feel my mind
wandering(mengembara) again
Into where I dont know
and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving
faster than I can
And I'm sick of this scene
I need to break the routine

Lagu dri Group From First To Last-Note to Self
...................

Jiwa kacau
...hahaha...

Today hari ini..

Arini, kul 12.25 tngh hari..aku rasa hari ni aktiviti aku terisi siket la...ad jg la benda yg aku buat...x macam semalam...mati kutu aku cri pebende la nak buat...smalam sempat gak la aku tengok citer transformer satu, selepas 4 jam mendownload ny di pagi hari...ap yg aku leh ckp..,,leh thn la citer dye..klakar,effect yg menarik serta awek yg cun...haha...teringat zaman kanak2 dulu2..akan datng transformer 2 menuggu di pawagam...mari la kite gerak bersama2 KJ ke pawagam di melaka...haha

ok, pagi tdi sempat la gak ak gi berjoging...sebab aku rasa kaki ak x sakit lgi and minyak moto pn dh ad...so pe lgi,peluang yg ad jngn disia2 kan...tol x??maka pergi la aku berjoging di taman rekreasi kat segamat sne...




fuh,lme x joging...pancit...tpi pancit2 pon de la kat 2 round gk aku pusin2 taman tu...kaki kata berenti, otak kata lari lagi..hahaha...pas lari tu, dh penat..gi la ronda2 taman tu sorang2..x ramai pon orang...kecuali orang2 yg sedar betpa penting nye kesihatan ...macam aku....hahaha...lega rasa nye ble dh berpeluh2 neh.....segar....




dh siap jging balik la ke rumah...kat rumah de aktiviti lgi...sian tengok buah hati aku...lme x mandi kn dia...luang kan la masa tuk dye sekijap....hahaha....motor aku la...basuh moto...lme x cuci, dh berkarat2 dh...syng kat moto aku....membasuh la aku moto tu dngn tekun sampai terlupa nak basuh kain kat rumah...hahaha...letih gak la pagi ni....


satu lgi aktiviti wajib aku, iaitu mendownload...smalam ak download citer transformer....dh tengok..hari ni ak donload citer Knowing..cerita horror lakonan Nicholas Cage dan awek aku iaitu Rose Byrne..ala gambar yg ak letak kat post sebelum ni...tu la dia awek aku...haha....lagi 3 jam lebih lgi siap la...terisi gak masa aku dngn benda2 yg berfaedah...

hari ini aku rasa semangat siket, sebab result LI dh kuar...macam bese la LI ni dioang wat utk menaikkan pointer...so aku dpat A...ok la, nek la sket pointer ak...semangat la gak utk skor sem depan..insyaAllah yer...kita sama2 berjaya bak kta kawan aku kpad aku....

N masa ak tngh tulis blog ni pun, ak masih mendengar lagu smalam iaitu lagu dri kumpulan The Go! Team...Huddle Formation...lagu ni mmg bnyk membeli ilham kpd aku...termasuk la ngn citer One Tree Hill tu...xyah la citer lagi....korang tengok la sindri...lau nak mintak kat aku...nanti aku burn kan tpi kene bayar la....haha...cri duit siket..almaklumla tngh pkai skrang ni...


walaubagaimanapun, kije yg aku buat slame ni x siap2 lagi...biler la kije tu nak siap kan...haha...kije ap tu???biar lah rahsia...



ok..ko...ok

Hari ini...

Arini 24 Jun kul 11.27 pgi. aku x tau nak watpe lgi dh sekarang ni.kebosanan yg x hilang2.cuba wat kije tpi sumer ny x best pd pndangan aku.kalau kaki aku x sakit dh lme dh ak gi beriadah pgi tdi.sebab kaki aku sakit, terpaksa la aku melupakan hajat tersebut.lme dh aku x gi jogng ni..hohoho...

lagi 2 minggu lgi naek la semester baru kat utem.nak balik melaka sekrang ni tpi de kije yg x siap lgi terpaksa la tunggu kije smpai siap.dh setel baru la lek melaka.budak2 ni pn dh ad dh kat melaka tu..yg ad skrang Paan,Kazama, Usop n Jit...dak2 len x tau la blik ble...merasa gak ak dok umah sewa sepanjang ak kat U ni..baru la leh berdikari siket..baru nama orang bujang ye x..hahaha...rumah kat belakang Melaka Mall sane..pe lg,leh la enjoy sakan...

tpi nak enjoy pun xleh sekarang ni...duit xnak kawan kat aku..asek lari je duit tu..aku nak kuar umah gi jalan2 kat bandar pun xde duit nak isi minyak moto..xkan nak mintak kat ayah lak duit tu...apatah lagi duit utk kegunaan bende2 len,nak beli pape ker...terpaksa la aku menahan diri ni...tu la, asek membazir lgi..kan dh xde duit..sekarang terpaksa lah aku menghabiskan duit kat umah ni jer...men pc lamer2..borinks....banyak kije2 yg terbengkalai sbb xde duit ni...kije ap la tu yer..???

sambil mendengar lagu rancak dri kumpulan The Go! Team yg bertajuk Huddle Formation dpat ler menceriakan hati ni siket...lagu dia rancak dan bersemangat...lagu ni aku dengar masa tngh menonton citer One Tree Hill...tengok cheerleaders menari mse pertandingan......tpi leh lak sorang tu terjatuh...pastu nak cover nye pasal,diorang menari suka2 hati jer...enjoy giler...pastu pemain2 basketball, team diorang lari atas pentas menari bersama2...enjoy giler laa...


pada aku citer one tree hill ni memang best giler la..bnyak elemen2 yg menarik dlm citer ni...
first sekali, semangat setiakawan,kesukanan,kekeluargaan,hiburan,percintaan,pengorbanan,knflik dan pelbagai2 lagi..
dh berapa kali dh aku layan citer ni...ulang2..dri season 1 sampai la ke season 7 skrang ni...tngh tunggu season 8...watak yg paling aku suka dalm citer ni adalh pasangan Nathan dan juga Haley...mmg best giler la perjalanan hidup diorang dri menuntut di kolej sampai masing dh ad kerjaya...namun begitu, diorang tetap rapat..kdng2 citer ni jdi sumber inspirasi gak pada aku....biler tensen jer aku tengok citer ni...sejuk siket hati aku,,,haha

aku pun masih mencari2 apa yg aku inginkan dlam hidup (cam kenal je ayat ni)..

hahahaha...

The Go! Team
Huddle Formation

5, 6, 5, 6, 7, 8

All these beats
walking' down the street
jumping, jacking
gimme some time
'cause if you don't, I won't
you gotta get back, yeah
if you do, I swear
I'll give it to you

standing on the board
the board is on the wheels
the wheels are on the ground
spinning round and round

I got the power
back yeah
all you gotta do
i got the power
back yeah
gimme some time

i got it here, where?
i got it there, where?
i got it
you got it
we got it everywhere
Go Team

get all your loser heads up
Go Team
try to pick up the junk
Go Team
get all your loser heads up
Go Team
try to pick up the junk
Go Team

Nk dengar panday2 le cri sindri...haha..ok

x tau la??

U know what?
I don't know..

Don't know what?
I don't know what I don't know..

So, what it means?
It means when the times come I will know..

So what?
I don't know...just wait and see..

"There are things that known,and things that are unknown,and in between there are doors"
The choice is in your hand to open the doors

Moments OF Glory

Sengaja aku letak utk menaikkan lagi semangat aku utk belajar lebih tekun lagi...hahaha..


Ni abang first aku,masa ni dia grad kat UITM Shah Alam.Dia amek ijazah Sarjana Muda Kejuruteraan Elektrik. Sekarang ni dia dh kije sbagai Project Engineer kat Shah Alm syarikat SPM (System Protection and Maintenance)..Best woo..dia dh nah gi Korea ad kije kat c2 and dia ad ckp syarikt nk hntar dia gi Qatar slame 4 thun..tpi mungkin dye x gi kot..kalau dia gi, x dapat le ak jumpa cik Kimi dan Zetti nanti...wargh!!!!


ni abang second aku, masa dia grad kat UMS sabah.dia amek ijazah sarjana muda pengurusan perniagaan.sekarang ni dia dh kije sebagai pegawai bank dkat bank rakyat kat Segamat..haha..senang la aku nak pinjam duit nanti..mmg bsy la kije dia..kuar pagi,,kat tngh malam bru balik..

ni sapo lak ni??ntah ak pun x kenal..dia sekrang kat UTEM amek Ijazah Sarjana Muda Kejuruteraan Elektronik..tapi dia dh grad dulu dh masa kecik..genius tol budak neh..sapo la dia 2 kan??? hahaha...dia tingal sethun lgi tuk abis kat utem 2...harap2 leh la dia berjaya dgn gred yg cemerlang....hahaha...


sama2 la kita berdoa utk kejayaan kita semua...allahumma barik lana fima........

Amin...jemput makan,jemput makn....

hahaha

Finally, aku bertemu juga dengan NYA

Setelah puas aku berusaha selama ni, akhir ny kau berjaya juga aku miliki.Setiap kali nak tido, bangun tido, aku slalu terpikir2 kan ko hingga tidur aku x nyenyak kerana kau..susah aku nak tido kerna kau..makan x kenyang, mandi x basah..hidup ini rasa x bersemangat tanpa ko..kau tau tak letih tau aku sebab ko..nak pecah kepala ni memikirkan kau..setiap hari ku risau..nak enjoy pun x serupa enjoy sebab ko..puas aku berusaha, bertanya sana-sini,sms beribu2 kali, mencari jawapan di sana dan di sini..akhir nye berkat usaha dan doa, berjaya juga aku mendapat kan kau..akhirnya segala persoalan menemui jawapan juga..namun begitu, aku masih belum berasa yakin dngan kau lagi..aku perlu mengenali kau lebih mendalam lgi terlebih dahulu sebelum aku mengambil ko sebagai 'Tajuk Projek Sarjana Muda' utk aku pada semster depan dan tahun akhir.

Hri ini aku berasa sangat gembira kerna telah menjumpai ape yg aku cari selama ni..harap2 no more prob lgi pasni..aku bukan mencari sesape, tetapi mencari apa yang kucari slame ni dan harap2 pada sem depan aku leh la skor..InsyaAllah..doa2 kan la aku..First priority now is STUDY, sECOND is Study Hard and ThIRd is stuDIE Hard..hahaha.......

Please SAY..please SAY..Please SAY

SAY WHAT????

SAY ALL I NEED...one republic
okey...I NEED ........... AND TAJUK PROJEK SARJANA MUDA...satu dh jumpa,satu lagi InsyaAllah akan jumpa..

Bak kata One Republic dlam lagu nya 'Say All I Need'

"Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head"

TEnsion,Tension..

I Miss U

Sejak 2 menjak ni, makin susah lak aku nak tido malam..kenpa ye??..lepak kat tilam punya la lme, tpi payah nak tido..atau adakah kerana tabiat aku yg suka minum susu menyebabkn tindakbalas kimia dlm badan mnjadikan mata ni susah nak tido..persoalan-persoalan??? sape leh jawab..atau adakah kerana nyamuk2 yg berterbangan mengeliling aku utk menjaga keselamatan ku...adakah kerana masa pada waktu malam itu jam menunjukkan waktu 3 petang...adakah ia merupakan penunjuk bahawa aku bakal menjadi SUPERHERO seperti BATMAN tidak lama lagi....


tApi, apa yng penting, setiap kali aku nak tido, lagu kat HP aku selalu memainkan lagu ni..
aku x tekan pun,,,HP tu macam tau2 je feeling aku tyme tu..

lagu PE???
lAgu dri kumpulan BLINK 182-------i miss u

""Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)""

Walaubagaimanapun, aku tetap xleh tidur....tulun..

For seseorang yg pasti nya...

Kadang2 tak semesti nya pe2 yg kita nak exactly menjadi apa yg kita nak..Manusia hanya mampu merancang dan berusaha...tetapi Tuhan yg berkuasa yg menentukan segala2 nya..Jngn menoleh ke belakang dan memikirkan kenapa ia berlaku??sebalik nya pandang lah ke masa hadapan dan berfikir lah bagaimana untuk mencapai impian tersebut...dan apa yg penting adalah masa sekarang ni,, detik sekarang ni...fokus lah dan simpan dan tingkat kan keazaman serta usaha utk mencapai ap yg kita nak 2...jngn mudah putus asa...kuat kan lah semangat..banyak kan lah berdoa kepada yg berkuasa....dan enjoy ur life and smile always kerna dari kegembiraan akan mewujud kan titik2 kebangkitan...

Dengar lah lagu ini.lagu yg ditujukan kpd diri nya..sekali je dlam hidup kita akn rasa masa sekarang ni....berusaha lah sebaik mungkin ye..

once in every lifetime -- JEM

It's time to move out of the darkness
Use what you feel inside
Your faith alone will guide you
Feel the turning tide

[Pre-chorus:]
It's n your heart, it's in your soul
Don't be scared, keep believing
I know you know, deep inside
That your time has come

[Chorus:]
Once in every lifetime
If you do believe
Man can move a mountain
Change the course of history
How far we've come
So far from home

Trust in your path, you've been chosen
Become your destiny
Lead and they will follow you
Your truth will set you free

GOOD LUCK